October Wraith

I wander through those leaves

that fell the night before,

feeling that some how I have


something, I wander as though I 

will never recover

who I was


I wander as if the universe collapsed

as soon as I put my head to the pillow last night,

as if there were a gaping hole where my heart use to be.

As soon as I reach the end of the path of the fallen leaves,

I see that yes, of course the universe did collapse, and there is an aching hole where my life use to be.

And I leave the stones I gathered last week 

at the beach on the place where

your ashes have fertilized the ground around your headstone. 

This anniversary is one I strive to forget, but fail.


2 thoughts on “October Wraith

  1. Poems of loss are always tough for me to read, especially if they’re good. I can ignore the bad poems; but not yours. In the past few years I’ve loss several family members. Nothing more needs to be said.

    • jeandesanto says:

      I’m sorry for your losses, Guy. I lost both my parents in the last 3 years. We never really understand how much people close to us affect our lives until they are gone.
      Thank you for the compliment on my poetry.

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